PREFECT!!! tired and sick of it@@!!!

haiz,this few day i am really v.down..
due to some matter,my new year mood was spoild!

damn it!!

during friday,when i was doing my prefect duty at the laluan,
a group of boi which i noe,n is my fren came and disturb me..
i shouted at them and warned them to leave the place..

den i turned aroud,a shoe hit on my head,it was damn pained..
at the moment,i was really v.furious and angry..

my fren,afiq which do prefect duty wif me,he asked me to report to my disiplin and prefect teacher..
actually,i dun wish to do tat,cuz the guy is my fren..

but i had been tolerate wif him since i became a prefect..
he almost everyday bring a group of junior came to my place 2 disturb and scolding things tat r not good to hear!
i hate it! i hate to report him!!
but.. wat can i do??!!

den,afiq and i went to report and complain abt the guy..
my disiplin teacher En.farid canned him cuz he was rude and his record was really bad,he once expelled from sch..but this time,he was expelled again too~!

i am lost,am i doing the right thing?!!
how i hope tat i dunnoe this fellow!!
now,he is blaming me..
so wat can i do??!! i am totally lost!!

but i really hope tat,this fren will still continue to treat me as his fren~
cuz i will him as my fren till forever!

学习，读书。。。我都觉得好累~

又开学了，不知为什么我觉得好累，有内心发出的累~是身心的累~
我开始讨厌学校，讨厌老师~

上学，都好像下地狱那样的苦~
因为老师的不公平对待，令我感到厌烦~
为什么，为什么他们都要对我们华学生有偏见？？！！
是他们说“satu Malaysia"的，可是。。。依然还是对我们华人那么的不公平~

就因为我们华学生的国语不好就要被别人贬吗？
我曾经是多么的不敢愿，曾经是多么的努力。。但是这一切换来的只有别人的白眼和一切的不公平~
我开始气馁，开始放弃~
因为我知道，不管我多努力，多想证明。。都只会功亏一尽,一切都是徒劳的~

为什么他们嘴里总是要把‘murid peralihan pada 2009'挂在嘴边？！
为什么总是认为peralihan学生就是烂苹果？？
我从来就不觉得读peralihan是多么的不好，多么的烂。。因为，我坚持着信念~
我告诉过自己，一定要证明给他们看，华人也可以做得很好~

我曾经以为我做到了，直到今年。。他们的对待才真正的告诉我，不管你做得多好，多厉害~都没用！
原因？只有一个，我不是马来人！

难道种族真的那么重要吗？为什么他们不能接纳我们？
为什么？peralihan,又怎样？！！
peralihan以可以是精英~我会证明给他们看的~~!!!